hi abby

you said some interesting things. like about other people having severe depression which makes them strong, and you believing you have mild depression and that makes you weak.

I would really like you to think about this! one thing we know about depression is it makes us only see the negative things around us and in ourselves. it really is a good analogy to say it lies to us and makes us think and believe the worst.

you are surviving your depression! and you are doing it in india, away from home! just being away from home can be very stressful! yet although you are having a difficult time, you are still aware of what is going on, trying to get through, and doing constructive things like posting here.

That shows a LOT of strength abby. your depression may not let you believe that but you have to try to trust me on this one. Even the idea that your depression "isn't as bad" as other people's is a subjective idea that your depression can latch on to and make the worst of. You cannot say if your depression is more mild or more severe than anyone else's, because you have never had the opportunity to "feel" anyone elses! Only your own!

And from your descriptions it certainly sounds like your depression is very severe, and yet you are dealing with it well, as well as possible. Maybe you only think that your depression is mild because in reality you have so much strength that you can keep it under control better than other people!

Just try to stay level abby, I think you are doing well. When things seem really negative remember that is a "false impression". the actual bad feelings you have are the sign that your depression is bad.

good luck abby

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