***potentially triggering***

It's been a while since I was here... I hope its ok that I even post something...

All I want to do is SI. I was to SI and just stop the pain and loneliness from over taking me. It's taking all my energy to stop thinking about how and where I would do it ... although, I know exactly how I would.

I could write more but thats basically it. I want to SI. it's all I can think about. I feel like my life is worthless and I have no one on my side ... which leads me back to wanting to SI ..