I sometimes find it very hard to do the things I need to survive, like getting the paper work together to get a small pension started so I'd at least have a small amount of money after I got fired. I have gaps too because it's hard to find a job when you are older and mentally ill and I have a bad habit of telling the truth without embroidering it. This time I found a jobs program and I'll have someone helping with placement. They will be at the interview with me and if the job turns out to be a nightmare for me they will find another placement. I'm afraid of the interview though. How do I explain that the last job overwhelmed me and would beat on my head and go into panic mode and that the last time I had enough so I refused to cooperate and invited them to fire me.