Well, I know I can be impulsive when something gets out of hand with me, even if it's something little. I just get stuck in emotions revolving around stress and frustration. Today however is the first time I noticed this inability to fully control my emotions actually affecting something with a friend of mine since 8th grade. Sure maybe this week was a little stressful, but not too much, and today I snapped a bit.

Was going to a convention she was hosting and I was starting to get irritated with the driving (didn't know how to get there), but I usually simmer down fast enough, but this time I didn't. The drive, the mild stress of the week, I just snapped and told her I would go home. Went home, got a text from her saying she was annoyed that she paid for my ticket just to have me leave, so I got in my car, drove back there and threw the $20 I was going to use for items at the convention at her. Sat in my car for a few minutes, went back to her and didn't even apologize.

Maybe that was mild, but I don't recall ever being that way to someone in real life. Sure I've done it online in times of extreme stress, but mild stress and to my best friend?

Maybe I'm coping poorly with frustration and stress? Are there any tips you all may have? Any ideas? I"m afriad of this behavior possibly getting even more chaotic and frustrating to others.

(Maybe I'm overthinking? I don't know though).

I should also add that during this entire period I was definitely thinking about breaking off our entire friendship, all those years and the fact that she's practically my only friend, I was seriously thinking about ending it all and never talking to her again.