Well I do that sort of thing, trying to channel energy into other things like if I'm on edge and feel more anxiety or whatever coming on I am sometimes able to use that energy for other activities but not always as sometimes I don't have enough control to be useful at any activities...but that's not quite what I meant. what I mean is more like not giving a crap about anything, and then when I have a lot of negative energy combined with that...its not a very good combination. So what I meant was I don't want to fall into that but it seems like I am. Uhh...its difficult to explain.

I guess I am not sure how resilient I am because I certainly don't feel that way, thanks though.