yea, I have. When I was 19 I had a break down and wanted to kill myself. My mother found my note and alerted the police. I had wanted to jump off the cliffs at the local beach/coast. I was picked up and escorted to the hospital. On the way over the younger officer said to me if I knew what a smashed pumpkin looked like. I guess he said that because he thought it would deter me. I personally thought that ending up smashed would not matter because I would be dead...it only matters to those who are left behind. I admit that I was really ashamed of that whole experience. Ashamed of being in the psych ward for nearly two weeks and wanting to get out. Ashamed/guilty for causing those around me grief for my 'selfishness'. yup, that whole experience caused a whole set of new issues to deal with. I have not repeated that 'mistake' again.