Rainbow...your T has always wanted and done what is best for you. It could be that she is excited about what she learned and is thinking "wow, this could help rainbow!". After everything you have said about her I doubt that she would put your emotional health in danger on a whim. You just said that when she was new at EMDR she offered to send you to someone who was better at it. So she knows her limitations. That proves that she is cautious about the new things she learns. Please don't ruin your weekend stressing about this.