What a reunion! I'm in exactly the same headspace right now. I've been doing so well on the sui and si stuff lately too!! Now it's all pounding at me again! I don't know what to do. I have a difficult relationship (and not much trust in) my therapists too. Let's try to support each other here and ride through the storm together. Maybe the feelings will pass. Right now I have a house full of people who, when they wake up will support me but right now everyone is sleeping and I'm the only one lying here wanting to kill myself.