I have 2 x wkly 50min sessiOns but for the first yr it was only Once a week. I think even for the first few yrs of twice wkly the unbearable waiting was just as present.

I think it's something that takes a long time to resolve and tolerate those unbeatable feelings of wanting. I remember T once saying that even if I lived with her all the time those feelings would come up if she left the room. It's about those early needs inside us and not necessarily about frequency. Over time I've built up the internalized relationship. It then becomes mine 24/7