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Originally Posted by bohogypsy
Good to hear that you do that already. Are you speaking of apathy when you speak of numbness or not giving a crap? and by negative do you mean depressive feelings or destructive? Both are viewed as undesirable I suppose. You're worried that youll do irreparable damage in that state, is that what you're getting at? Yea, I can see how it is a state one would not want to fall into, but it is what it is. Those feelings are there for a reason so you just need to keep probing to find the underlying reasons for those uncontrollable emotions, and to work from there. It takes time and persistence to move through.
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Yes kind of apathy I guess, and I get depressive feelings and destructive feelings...though I find the destructive feelings a bit more disturbing, because I have never been the type that likes to cause any harm to others.
Also since I know what caused my PTSD and I know what I was depressed about before that and all I think I know the underlying reasons...its just knowing any of that does not really help, because I still feel the same and still get set off. I mean I guess I get into a certain state sometimes when I get set off and sometimes i worry I won't be able to return from it basically. I mean sometimes I just feel really anxious and on edge for a bit and may have a hard time controlling myself and end up hitting things or whatever...but sometimes it goes beyond that into kind of extreme apathy, or something to that effect. I feel this would be easier if these things were easier to describe.
Maybe there is some other underlying thing though, not sure though.