I don't know you well, but if you don't have a good relationship with your family and you live with them this could be making things difficult for you. I know I struggle with being around my family even for short periods of time. I'm not sure if that is something that you can change right now though...

I think humans have a need for social interaction, some more than others. I have a great need for it, I struggle if I spend too much time alone. Are there support groups where you live? And while we do need to learn to love ourselves, I also think the support and friendship of others is important also. I hope you keep posting and that in time you will begin to find the connections in life it sounds like you are looking for.