No i havent ever called a crisis hotline, it takes to much guts and willpower and i dont have either.
No, i dont feel safe anywhere, anytime. Whenever i enter a room i scan the room to see if their is anything i can cut with or kill myself with. There's nothing thats safe.

How can i beleive i have a future?
Ya, we spoke about my parents but i refused to say much and just waited for him to switch the topic. I used to go once every 5 or 6 days however i havent gone now for like 2 weeks or more. By my last appt i didnt make another one, since i olny do if he asks me and this time he didnt ask me. However he said he'll see what he can do concerning about my meds so i figured he'll get back to me but he didnt. Im not calling him if he feels its imp he will call, if not than i guess indeed its not necessary.
Im not sure that we're working on something specific. At one point he wanted to tackle the topic of my parents but i didnt cooperate. He mostly just asks me questions and i reply if i feel like it. Im not that good, which is probably why he doesnt feel im so imp to deal with. He got a lot out of me, but i dont feel like were dealing with one thing, but thats my problem cuz i dont feel comfortable talking.
I went on an overnight with my class, i was so depressed and lonely that iswallowed half a bottle of tylonal with alcohol and cut the whole night yet it all stayed queit and im still around.