@Leed there isn't anything else behind it, she's a good friend, but like how I handle most things, I guess I wanted to run away. I have a pattern of doing that. Did it when I was younger and still do it today. Not sure why I do that flight reaction so stronngly though. If I think about it I can stir of the same feeling of just wanting to cut everyone off.

Hmmm, wasn't considering that as a "pretty good 'snap'" but I guess it was, I guess most people don't react. I think I was weighing it against my previous "snaps" where I actually did disconnect myself from many other people. But I guess you're weighing in the money throwing?

I wonder if there's just a reason such reactions occur without control. It's like I'm allowing my emotions to take full reign over me. I just don't understand myself lol