I never did go through with this idea. To be honest, I totally forgot about it until I ran across this thread today! I did talk with her last week about the need to have a 'barrier' between us. We talked about places in her office where I could sit when I need to 'get away from her and be alone'.

She even said that I could sit in the floor and pull the chairs in front of me if that is what I needed to do. She basically said that whatever I need to do while in session (as long as it is safe) is what I should do. One thing she did require is that I continue to communicate with her. Whether through talking, nodding, writing, etc.......anything to let her know that I was still 'in the moment' and was doing okay.

Since I am out for the summer, I am more flexible to meet her at her office instead of at the church. She told me to take my time on making that decision. She knows that changing locations is hard for me. She knows that the littlest things can trigger me in a session.

I even wrote her a letter last week to remind her of all the little things that can throw me off in a session: lighting, smells, sounds, temperature of the room, etc......I ended that letter with "I know you think I am making excuses for not moving forward and you think all of this nit picky stuff is my way of avoiding my feelings."

She responded that she didn't think that way at all. In fact, she thought what I had written (expressing my needs) was a sign of progress. Really? I almost didn't give that letter to her because I thought it sounded so ridiculous!