Ive been trying pretty hard the past couple weeks to keep myself from slipping further down. It doesn't see to be working. I'm honestly starting to feel like death is gonna be my fate
I'm no suicidal but idk....I'm having one hell of a time, lemmie tell ya.
I just got out of the hospital, I was in the psych ward there for a week. I started getting ect tx. Wasn't helping untill this last treatment, still depressed as ever but ever since yesterday's treatment Im having memory problems now. Uhhhh NOtHING is working out for me. Now I can't remember important dates and other stuff.
No medicine has worked, therapy-I mean it feels good to talk but I'm not sure how much that's helping and even ECT isn't helping!!!!
My unemployment ran out. I'm gonna try and apply for disability to get some income coming in. But dr.s orders are I can't drive while getting ECt, so my dad physically took my keys.
Stuck at my house with my kids, no car, no cable, depressed as ever. LOVEEEE my life :/.

I hvnt been this depressed in a long time. Even a while ago when I was really depressed, I wasn't THIS down. I hate how nothing is working! Not even the most extreme treatments

I don't know what to do anymore. I hate feeling like this. I wish I could have the power to feel better again. I'd even take 10% better...