PTSD is very hard to deal with, and it is very important to have a good therapist that can keep you directed and also be there to validate you. Also the support here is good too because lets face it, it can get really lonely at times.

My therapist keeps telling me that I CAN get better and that with PTSD there are ups and downs as you are progressing through it so it can feel like you are only treading water sometimes.

Wow, can I relate to everything being said here about the struggle. I recognized the anger in myself as well.

I was invited to go to a horse show today and watch my daughter ride. I struggle to find a way to say, I would love to but I am just not ready because the truth is, I am not ready to be around that group of people yet. And my daughter is not at the point where she will listen to WHY.

I had something scheduled for work today that got cancelled and I was actually glad because I was not doing well today. The one good thing about what I do is that I am always around people I do not know so I don't get triggered, thank god for that. But I know in many ways I am struggling and not anywhere near where I was before I suffered the loss of my animals and business from my neighbor's dog. And to be honest, I still get so angry about that too.

I just keep reminding myself to be kind to myself and that does really help a lot. I was thinking today, if I could just think about everything without the emotions that riddle me with crippling days, gee why can't I do that sometimes?

And when other people make invalidating remarks I have to sternly remind myself that these people truely do not see the struggle. I have to remind myself that if I didn't have it myself, I too would probably not get it, could even make the wrong statements that suggests the "justs" we hate to hear so much.

The one thing I DO know is that we cannot run away from it. We HAVE TO LEARN TO BE PATIENT and continue to take one day at a time, and ofcourse be kind to ourselves.

(((Hugs to all, I hear you))))
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