I don't mean to hijack a thread, but the title caught my eye...I feel SO crappy! I just need this to stop. Open Eyes, don't baby me...I'm losing all objectivity...is it true this would bother most people?? I told them it it bothers me, and now I will have hell to pay. This bunch works like this...they do something crappy, I am blamed and punished. That's just the way it is and has always been. You have no idea how many times I've told myself, just forget it, ignore it, don't say a word! I'm so tired of feeling like crying all the time. Some years ago I stopped crying and just got mad! They'll never forgive me for it.
I moved back here to be 'close to my kids', especially this granddaughter with a new baby at 18....how could I have forgotten how awful it was and they were the reason I left 9 years ago! I AM so annoyed with myself for hoping it would be different. Shortly after I moved here last year, I was SO sick...85 lbs...perpetual diareah (can't spell it!), back was out, couldn't even get up the stairs and then the shingles on top of it. Then I couldn't breathe and found out the place was infested with mold they cleverly covered up. I paid an inspector (another 'relative'), but he missed it. I was so sick and alone in a new place. But busy doing all the decorations, buying the dresses, flowers, etc for this granddaughter's wedding. One day my daughter emails me and says she's coming by after work (only about a mile from me) to have dinner with me at 4:30. I was so thrilled! 4:30 came, 5:30, 6:30...finally I called. She was in a bar getting tossed with her girlfriends...she's 44 years old. She 'forgot'.
SO tired!
Why can't I face the fact that none of these people have any use for me?
And when I say it, they just tell me "you're crazy".