Don't fret. It may seem hopeless. I have been engaged twice to two women I thought I would spend the rest of my life but I guess some people just can't handle all the baggage that comes with some one with bipolar disorder. Mine happens to be ultradian cycling so intellectually I understand what it would do to a relationship in any circumstance. I was always one to just give my heart away but every relationship ended because of me reflecting back on it now. I promise you though there is hope. It just takes that one person who just wants to understand you and who is completely fascinated with what you are. I think I found her. I have faith in you too, but still be cautious with love.