well stop listening to your family's rejection. family is just an accident of birth, like what country you happen to be born in. sometimes you're lucky, sometimes you're italian that's what my T's have been telling me for years - and it's funny, because they are the ones who helped us grow up without a female gender identity when it was convenient for them, and now they're all mad about it. wth? imo you are a valuable person as well as population and your personal story needs to be heard, not buried. it is a significant unspoken part of the human puzzle.