Thinking of trying to get on SSI since I am pretty much useless on jobs...last one I had was a temporary job and I thought I was laid off because they had ran out of work for me, later found out they thought I was 'mental' and apparently I was working too slow. Then last time I had an interview for a job I showed up the person to interview me was not there and the employees that were there were really rude to me. Then of course I applied for a seasonal job and in an interview the interviewer asked me if I drank socially or something else cant quite remember the wording, I wouldn't describe it as either so that question caught me off guard. I feel like my hesitation screwed me over. I mean I drink because I like it or, to calm myself but I don't really go out and socialize a lot, lately I am usually either at my moms house in my room or my friends house.

But even if I get on SSI what then? or if I cant get on it what do I do? I mean I am just not sure i can survive homeless...maybe I could, but there are issues like the winter, and really hot weather in the summer. Not to mention I am not exactly the type to walk up to someone and ask for change or anything so I am not quite sure how I could feed myself, maybe there are places that give out food but I don't know. I mean at this point I feel my mom has every right to kick me out....I am 22 I have no income so I cannot contribute to the bills and I just eat whatever food there I want...and am hardly ever there as I feel less stressed at my friends house. When I am at my moms house I try to help with cleaning and such, but it doesn't feel like enough. I just feel like a burden to everyone, yet somehow some people still want me around....so I'm really trying to keep going in life even though it feels I am going nowhere no matter how hard I try.