I imagine it gets better is not what you want to hear...anyways I kind of wonder the same thing at times. However having a few people who are there for me makes it hard to follow through because i don't wan't to cause them pain. I guess I am not quite sure what to say, I mean its about ending the pain...if there is an alternative to suicide its probably better to go that route, though sometimes it can be hard to see any alternative. But keep posting, venting might help some, at least for the moment.