(((hopefull))) I read as much as I could (I'm depressed too
) I think it's good that you are continuing to try and get this topic discussed with your doctor. I think the pdoc will understand more than you expect. Why not write down your questions, as you think of them, and then read the list to the pdoc if you have to?
Your pdoc will probably ask questions to make sure you haven't had a reaction to any similar drug before... and then write a script for you for a medicine they are satisfied with... remember, you can also ask your pharmacist questions about the medicine too (I usually talk to my pharmacist... he is always less rushed than my MD.)
Sometimes there are some "getting used to " side effects... but if the medicine works for you, they seem neglible, imo. A medicine begins working as soon as you first take it..but depending upon how much you need it...will depend upon how long it takes for the medicine to build up to a "therapeutic" level..meaning when you will begin to feel better.
With "normal"
depression, there's little difference between cognitive behavior therapy results and antidepressant results (I think that's right...hmmm) If you can combine the two... you will get better for sure
yes you are thinking quite negatively...that's the depression talking imo.
Yes, there are some "Christians" that consider any illness as not having faith in God. I think they need to read the Bible in a better light, for surely there are those who were ill and strong believers (I'm thinking...PAUL???) God gave men the knowledge to work good medicine, and he gives us the ability to think to go to those men/women(called doctors.)
IMO antidepressants WORK when your own brain won't. Depression is caused by a reduction of serotonin (basically.) An antidepressant aids the brain in getting more serotonin into your system so you won't feel depressed. The newer meds are even better at doing that, and interfere with other functionings less.
That you don't spend much time thinking of good things is another indicator of depression. Please do try some of the new meds, I think you'll be glad you did.