hi - so sorry you are feeling so crappy

the feeling you describe remibnds me of a fweling i had smack bang in the middle of counselling a couple of years ago - i described it as a big void, like there was no solid ground beneath my feet

if its the same thing then maybe your wife is right about it being a good thing - on the other side of that feeling i found a much better place - it was hard to get through but worth every second of the pain

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