I've been there, and learned to weigh on a scale, stability vs worrying about life long meds. or not.
If without, equals misery, instability,depression and/or mania, I prefer to be on meds . . . even if it is for an eternity. I have grown to value life,living, no matter how crappy it is at times, and I have grown out of denial, so if it be meds, then meds it shall be.
It's your choice, misery,depression,uncertainty,etc. or give meds and therapy a honest try, even if it takes time.
Just my take on this, for I have been there, and done that.
Letting my pride go, and be open to help, has made all the difference, and all the therapy,meds, etc. has made a huge positive change in my life. Because of that,my son and family still have me here on earth, and all the work,tears,meds, have been all well worth it.
Again, that is my personal take on this.
Having Bipolar disorder is no pic nic, but it also is not a life sentence, there is help, and success, just takes time and effort.
I wish you well with all of this.
Take care now,
DE