I am sorry you are in the pit. I try to make myself do one thing a day. I worked up to two things a day, but that seemed overwhelming so I am back to one. Sometimes I think it is a rational response for awhile - your family and the loss of your uncle =reacting the way you are is not irrational. Try not to be too hard on yourself for the depression. I have found for me, to also be upset with myself over being in the pit, does not help me get out of it. Accept you are doing the best you can at the moment. Coming to the computer is no small feat sometimes.