Hum. Well. This is quite a lot to ponder. I'd like to further this thread a bit more if that is alright by asking people like SeptemberMorn how exactly you go about hardening your heart. I honestly have no idea how to do this. The current situation is that I am wide open to hurt. Like a guy in a arena against a huge gladiator with no armour or weapon. Bound to lose everytime. Please try to give me some tips on what I should think to myself and stuff. Thanks for all your posts.