I am really sad. My T is leaving the practice in Aug and moving to a new practice too far away for me to drive (I thought about it!) ... so I'm going to have to find another T.

I am sooo bummed. I think I mentioned in prior posts that I have a really hard time trusting and connecting with other women, and she and I were doing great.

I don't mean to sound selfish at all! I think the world of her and am so incredibly happy for her. This is a step up for her. But I am so scared now. I don't know what it going to happen. I am hoping that I will be able to connect with another really good T and I can continue to heal. And in particular, a T that also specializes in my stuff.

After we talked about it yesterday, I told her how happy I was for her - truly - and I was so excited for her...and then I burst out into tears. I said, "I don't know how to do my life (now) without you." We tried to keep it positive. 3 more months together can mean a lot of progress and in July I will start merging and meeting with other T's. Hopefully someone will click and vice-versa.

This is a productive and sad weekend for me.