I'm very happy I found this site and am hoping to receive some good advice from someone. I am having several issues but am optimistic about receiving a little help and/or peace of mind. The issue that prompted me to seek out advice is as follows. My girlfriend (whom I've been with now for almost a year) revealed to me last night over the phone, in an off hand way, that she's had sex with upwards of 30 men. Which really is no big deal. I figured she'd been with as many just listening to her describe her past experiences, although I belive the number is much higher. Still I don't have the standard feelings of insecurity about (what I consider to be) such a high number of partners. During the conversation she let it be known that she had taken on two men at once when she was a teenager. Now, that coupled with the fact that's only what she's told me literally made me sick. I had the imagery stuck in my head. It caused me to gag and then throw up. And continues to make me sick and now, sadly, regretful that I've let our relationship go as far as it has. I love her, we've entrenched each other in on anothers lives to the pont where it seems and most likely is, petty for me to feel this way. I haven't chosen to feel this way. I was sickened involuntarily by it and still am. I don't blame her or wonder about measuring up. I'm just not sure I can bring myself to make love to her again or even kiss her. She's a wonderful woman. I don't like feeling this way about her but thoughts of her being railed by to men at once and then on top of that all the other likely possibilities disgust me. I've had 5 sexual partners and was married for 10 years. She's 29 I'm 32. I guess I would like to get over this as I don't want it to be a problem but I don't believe I can let it go. I have thoughts of horrible thoughts about her now. I'm not sure I can put my lips on hers again without being sickened. I can't lose her we have to much going on with each other. I still feel the same about her but am not finding this to be something I can shake off. I appreciate any advice and am willing to elaborate as we have several other issues as well all relating to sex.