I guess you can say I am having a rough time right now and my nerves on end. I would go into a full pledge panic attack right now if it wasn't for one of my blood pressure medications that keeps my heart from spending up unnecessarily thus keeping my blood pressure in check.

My boss has been in and out of the hospital for over a month. I have been running the business and taking care of everything. She came in the office Tuesday and when I went in to speak to her, she was lying down on the couch in her office. I didn't bother her and told her husband what I needed to tell her. He told me to do the best I could do. I hope I am making the right decisions.

I have to lose a 100 pounds so I am watching everything I eat and drink and then feel guilty for eating.

Anyway, after I got off work Tuesday, I went to a restaurant that serves steamed vegetables. I had been there about 10 minutes when the owner (who is a friend of mine) told his wife he was going to get the employees paychecks from the CPA. He had no more than left when we noticed patrol cars racing toward the direction he had just went in. His wife went outside to see what was going on and the first thing she saw was the deputies pulling out a white sheet. She fell apart and the rest of us pretty much did, also. She finally got ahold to her husband. He was okay and he had witnessed the accident. A motorcycle going between 90 and 110 mph had hit a truck turning into a driveway. The cyclist was killed instantly. The cyclist and the driver of the truck were friends and we all knew them. We were shocked. Still shook up over it.

I am, also, dealing with pain from arthritis and bone spurs in my feet. To top it off I had a bad encounter with ants. Anti-itch medication is not working.

Too much drama going on with my mother-in-law and brother-in-law. They are driving my husband crazy, therefore me, also. Always something going on with them.

I was I could some rest with no pain and no thoughts running through my head and people leaving me alone for a little while. When I get nervous, my ocd, phobias, and everything else kicks in. I am so tired of all this.