I am really afraid, myself, to make any commitments right now because of that very thing.

I seem to have a pattern of wanting to do something and not following thru, sure as anything that I will mess up and it will be the end of the world. So I don't follow thru. Or if I do, I back out quickly.

Once I took a music class and stayed exactly a week and then left.

Another time, I signed up for a treatment program (2000) and left exactly a month later.

I think I have this subconscious planner in my head that says, "I will stay for a certain amount of time and then leave".

To avoid any problems? Hmmm...like it's safe to stay a while and then bail out. So I won't get hurt.

Billi