Welcome to the forum (((((( poozers61 ))))))
I'm sorry you are suffering so much right now. It is hard for others to understand how we are feeling when we don't "look" sick. I'm actually kind of lucky because I have daughters and friends who understand when I'm unable to be who I really am because I'm suffering.
Vent away here....that's what this place is for. You are not alone by any stretch of the imagination!

sabby