Thanks lee. She is being so sweet in conversation onthe phone right now and taking care of matters so adeptly at home that while speaking to her that its not that difficult to put it aside while talking to her. But while working and trying to sleep ,which I'm getting very little of and is hard to come by anyway at work, its very sad for me because I feel as though this is becoming ever increasingly the focus of my thoughts and as I've stated I'm actually dreading seeing her now. Also she has been tested and she definitely does not have any std's. Once again thank you for the comments.