life sucks sometimes. actually quite a bit of the time... I'm caring for you for more than a second... I don't know you or even live in the same country as you, and you know what ..I get it ..I get how crappy and mixed up your life is and that you really don't want to go on living...it all sounds pretty hopeless...but I do care about you and for you and for all the other people out there that have a mixed up screwed up life... sometimes I look at other peoples 'ideal' lives and I think, why didn;t that happen to me, I look at people who have found real love more than once in life. why can't I find it even once.. well , we just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other each day, cause opting out is not really an option. all we would be doing is confirming everything we thought about ourselves in the first place and then what would the point be ?? nah... you just gotta hang in there and take solence from the simple fact that there are people ( be it online) who do care about you for more than a second... lets start moving forward together ... as others have said keep up with the therapy and just keep looking out for better days... (((hugs)))