Hi anjelmarie,

thank-you for sharing more of how you are feeling right now. It does sound like you have a lot of tough things to deal with, in terms of your health and accomodation and pressure from family.

I know that feeling of shame and just wanting some peace - I have not read your other posts, but wondered whether you have a therapist? I started seeing mine when I had strong sui thoughts and although I still have them almost daily, I do think it has been helpful to me to see a T.

Please keep posting on here about what is going on for your right now if it helps. I know there are a lot of people on here who really get it and understand just how lonely it can be.

Soup