Thanks, I also like to think it was the first time. Kid, lol, he's 27. He was sensitive and didn't rush me, no coercion, no force. He acted very mature when we had a little crisis in the middle. We laughed in bed, totally new for me. I'm very very happy I did it and proved my rapist was lying when he said nobody would ever want me. Gigantic step in my recovery, yay!