This reminds me of a period of time when I was in a LOT of pain, and my therapist did a symbolic "put it in the box" thing. I was seeing my therapist at least twice a week, 1.5hrs each session. I had PTSD, and had been deeply re-traumatized by a single complex situation from my recent past. I had exited a very toxic therapeutic relationship that had lasted four years, and had caused me to disintegrate. Once it started coming out about three months into therapy with my new therapist, I cried buckets of tears every single session. Seemed like it went on forever. I was not only in debilitating pain, but I felt so much shame about my pain. She seemed to think I was 'stuck' and made it clear that she was worried that I would never get out of my obsession on this pain if I didn't shift my focus to other things. So she tried to put limits on the time I spent on that subject in therapy. I tried.. but I continued to struggle with my obsession on this pain - and it was causing me trouble in my outside-of-therapy life, like at work.

So... I went to therapy and tried to talk about lots of other things, but when I left therapy, the unresolved pain would overwhelm my ability to cope.. I was never free from it.. and I became more and more isolated. Then one day.. quite suddenly.. my therapist shocked me. I relayed something that I guess caused her to realize how much I was isolating myself outside of therapy obsessing on this pain, and she said: "Crescent - here's what I want you to do. Every time you are here, you can talk the entire session about that painful situation. But when you leave here, as best as you can, don't let yourself think about it. This is your place to talk about it - to feel the pain. I want it in here, and in here only. If intrusive memories pop up outside of here - set them aside for a few days till our next session. Or, if you need to, write it out in an email and send it to me. Just don't let it take over your life outside of session. For as long as you need to, you can do it in here." omg.. that was like a miracle for me. I felt so much self-imposed shame about the pain I felt. To have her give me permission - to hear her welcome my pain.. to have her give me a safe place to put it.. somehow it set me free. My pain had been so all-consuming for such a long period of time, we both thought I might never resolve it. But her giving me permission to dump it in therapy with her - twice a week for 1.5 hrs each time - somehow that was such a huge relief.

I was able to do it. When memories intruded outside of therapy, I was able to put it in a corner of my mind and heart - to save for therapy. Then I'd get to therapy and she would let me just dump. Her previous appearance of "aren't we done with that yet?" vanished, and she, in a very heartfelt way, really encouraged me to talk about and feel that pain while I was with her. I got lots of validation.. she expressed her own righteous indignation at the source of my re-traumatization.. she displayed very spontaneous reactions that made me feel like she, if she could, would personally fight the source of my pain. That was such a healing experience.. and it was amazing how after a few months of doing that, what we both thought would never be resolved, resolved on its own. I hadn't even realized it until one day she said "Crescent.. do you realize that in the last several sessions that you've barely mentioned that painful experience? You've spent maybe 10 minutes in each session talking about it, and it's been just in passing - not at all a focus." Because she encouraged me to restrict myself to only feeling that pain in therapy, I had learned to not let it invade my life outside of therapy.. but I hadn't realized I wasn't focusing on it in therapy until she pointed it out. It felt incredible to realize I was no longer being strangled by it.

So "boxes" can be good