Thanks for your reply Leed.

Maybe I am too "thin skinned" or something, I'm not sure. I just tell myself now that I shouldn't expect people to be there whenever I need them because it's too much to ask for. I personally wouldn't do the same, but that's just me. Either way, it means too much to me to throw everything away just for that. I just hope I haven't done so much damage that it can't be fixed now. I really hope I'm overreacting and I'm waiting for the day that everything goes back to normal, if it will. Maybe it'll be soon.