I am female-to-male, have been on testosterone injections an saving up for top surgery (removal of breasts and reconstruction of a male chest) for five years. As for the reasons behind my transition...I struggled with being identified as female from twelve to nineteen, starting with the onset of female puberty. I was an emotional wreck, supremely unhappy, self-harming and suicidal. I reached a point at which I had to start transitioning or end up killing myself. It was that simple for me. I wanted to live, but I couldn't keep going as I had for nineteen years, so I had to act. Scariest thing I've ever done; also one of the most rewarding.

As to who I am attracted to, I am bisexual, but gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. I grew up around the GLBT community, so my sexual orientation wasn't much of a struggle; the struggle usually comes when I try to explain it to other people who think gender identity is correlated to sexual orientation. When I was only attracted to men, I identified as gay.

As to who is attracted to me, it's people who are attracted to smaller guys who are pretty butch and a little femme and are confident and comfortable with themselves. I get offers from all sorts of different people, straight women and gay men, bisexual people and even some lesbians. Perhaps they pick up on my trans status, and maybe they don't; perhaps it comes as a shock when I come out, but it doesn't bother me if it doesn't; perhaps they are as flexible and comfortable in their sexuality as I am.

Can't speak for everyone, of course. This is just my experience and my feelings. Bit of a long reply, sorry - I enjoy sharing my journey - but I hope it helps with some of your questions.