I hear you on that one. I wish I had some 'sage' advice for you! Strange enough, I too, tried the smoking and drinking thing as well. My body didn't care too much for that, though so now I am not coping at all, lol.

Well, if you need to vent, ever, feel free! That's about all I have left to do...I am going to try the therapy thing, but we will see how that goes!

Hey, maybe you could secretly take meditation back up. If it worked for you before, and you enjoyed it, give it a go again! No one would have to know. (Just a thought, but who am I lol)