Hi Give In and Cry -- It can be tough to lose one's best and only friend. It sounds like you are very isolated right now. I understand that feeling of being in a dream when I am so sad, just disconnected from reality.

In this day of cell phones, is it possible that you could afford a pre-paid phone to get in touch with the family and friends you miss so much?

Why are you living so far away from them and can you get back? I can't recommend drinking as a solution, as I know from personal experience it can lead to other worse problems -- but I understand the impulse that makes you look to this as a solution.

Maybe if you just have a drink or two, do you think you might meet someone new and nice at the bar?

I am sorry that you are losing your friend and wishing you all the best. You can come here to tell all your problems.