omigosh, I do that whole "oh, crap, I woke up. I don't want to wake up" thing. thank you for posting that because now I know I'm not alone.

I'm glad you have people around you to make you not make a horrible decision. like Soup said you (and me) are not in a sound state of mind to make such a decision. I know it's trite, but I keep reminding myself that it's a permanent decision to temporary problem(s). truth.

please keep yourself safe. you touch so many lives, you have no idea. stay here. we don't want to have to miss you! xoxo