I have so many problems I don't even know where to begin. I am so mean to my friend, He is my best friend and he is absolutely wonderful and I don't feel like I deserve him as a friend, He's extremely nice and understanding and I haven't been giving him the same respect and I just treat him horribly lately.. I yell at him, I call him names, I get frustrated with him because he has ADD and he's extremely forgetful and I'm clingy and strange and I get so scared that people will leave me because of my friends from the past who have treated me like **** and left me behind, standing by myself.. I have no idea why I am pushing him away.. He's the most amazing person I have ever met.. We've been fighting on and off for the last month and it's been getting worse and worse.. I hurt him so bad today and he's really upset.. Now he doesn't want to speak with me anymore and I just.. don't know what to do anymore.. :/

Why do I do this to him, why do I sabotage my friendship with him..Why do I do this...