I am a twenty five year old female and got married last year at the age of twenty four. I was lead to believe he loved me.Let me start from the beginning he is from Kenya and when we first got together he told me that he may be marrying some one to stay in this country. I being the person i am said you do not have to do that I will marry you and so after meeting in February we were married by April. Things started to go south real fast to the point that I moved out in may. I have not gone back since and I know that in a relationship it takes two people. We just were not working out. I recently found out he is dating some one else. Or as he says it he is having a friend with benefits. I accepted this but we fight so much over this. I know if i divorce him that he will have to go back to kenya. He says that he loved me and did not use me but in my heart i feel like he did. I just feel when you are married you are there for the long haul. We are friends if you can use the word losely but that is it. If I have to give him something it seems like she is always there. I want in my heart to just move on and let him be happy and live his life but a part of me feels like i should make this work. I am not angel either i have kissed another guy and yet even knowing he is with this girl i am willing to forgive him. I just wish that my heart would heal enough to let him be happy but all i think about is how could you do this and than tell me to accept it. I try so hard to defend him and tell the world he did not use me but it goes in one ear an out the other. When things are good between us they are really good and when they are bad they are really bad. I just wish i knew what to do. Is not talking to him the answer. I mean all in all i still get him things I Still make sure he is happy but in the end i feel like i am dieing inside and i am to young. I have recently started moving on I do not call as much and i let his life be how it is, but deep down inside i just want to cry. If anyone out there can offer me some advice i would be glad to hear it.