I got to see my T yesterday after him being gone on vacation. I am proud of myself for the way I was able to handle myself while he was gone. I did not flip out....I did not get suicidal....I did not call the crisis line repeatedly in fact did not need to call it at all. I called the clinic once and that was during the day.

Yesterday we talked about my food issues and he thinks I have an eating disorder but he can't diagnosis it he said. So I guess when I see my pdoc next week I will talk to her about it and see what she says. He did say that if I do have an eating disorder that he can't help me with it because he has no experience in that area. I said I didn't think anybody at my clinic did and he agreed and said he'd research that and see if he could find someone. I'm scared that this means he's dumping me. I don't want to have to start completely over with someone but if I could see them in addition to seeing him that would be good. But I don't know if that is allowed. Oh well we will see how that goes.

Jbug