Hi Kris,

I understand what you are going through. I've tried to do the self hypnosis relaxation on YOUTUBE.COM. And I also try Yoga and it really does help my mental well being. Today I'm feeling like I want to die too and that's why I am responding to you. Thank God neither of us are sucidal but I sure know how it feels to think it would be easier to die than to constantly deal and make the effort of getting through the next minute, hour and day everyday, all day long. Like it doesn't stop. I know what it's like to always think, like I can't stop thinking of what I don't like about myself. If only I can stop or control my thinking I wouldn't be in such a mess emotionally. I hope I helped you feel a little better. Tell me what you do to try and stop feeling hopeless? I can use your help too. Thank you, Christine