It must be very hard to deal with all of those emotions though it is really important to do so. Trying to forget about what happened to you is never a beneficial thing. Before you can fix something you must first acknowledge that it exists. It seems to me that you have already accomplished the most important thing and that is acknowledging what happened to you. Now it is important to realize that the abuse is not your fault. Trust me, eventually you will be able to discuss these emotions and feelings. Just give it some time... Your thearpist will help you....