Here is something that might be of help. I did it and found it worthwhile. See if your state has a Department of Vocational Rehabilitation. If you get accepted as a client of Voc. Rehab., there can be quite a lot offered to you.

To get SSI, you would have to demonstrate that you have a disability. I am going through the process of applying for SSDI and/or SSI at the present. What the law firms tell me, and I talked to several, is that you need a history of having been treated for the disability. My current legal representative tells me they mostly base their decision on what they read in the records of your medical treatment.

If you feel you have a mental disability, then it would be wise to start establishing a "paper trail." An actual doctor has to diagnose you with something before you can even be considered for SSI.

Going for help is a good idea for 2 reasons. #1) You might get some help that enables you to function better. #2) You will have a record started to reflect that you are having trouble coping.