Hi
My name is Chris, and this year I'm finishing 20 years. I will present my problem as precisely as possible, because it is very unusual (I don't meet anybody with a problem like this), and I think some details can be very important:

The problem starts when staying in large spaces, such as auditoriums, church, etc. When there is starting an event in this place (for example: lecture, exam, etc.), and I begin to sit down together with the assembled people, nothing happens yet. The impression of feeling a large space raises some kind of the feeling of uncertainty, but in this moment I can looking on the other people around me, with great freedom (yet). But after a while (up to several minutes, or just when the event starts and the are silence - for example, on the lecture) there is a big problem. The impression of space is beginning to have an increasingly negative impact - I start to have seizures, I'm starting to be jittery, and - most importantly in this problem and the worst - I start getting to have a sort of "paralysis" neck. This causes that I start to (as if inadvertently) lift down my head. The whole situation escalates further, and being for some time in that body position, I'm not normally able to lift up my head as previously and look straight ahead instead of down. And when I try to lift my head, some kind of force "pulls" it down again. The whole situation can be a suprise in the audience, and I myself feel embarrassed and then enslaved by my own body, and I'm still waiting at the end of the event, when I will be able to leave the room. All this "embarrassment" is compounded by the fact that in such event, the large hall with the audience is quiet and focused, and you have to "sit" in one position to the end. In my opinion, the size of the audience affects this problem, because if the room will be perfectly empty, then this "paralysis" would not exist at all (although I am not entirely sure of this). But I know that this problem almost completely prevents to keep my attention in this big room during an event - it was particularly evident for me during the writing of examinations in a large hall. By the way, the two exams (these are the four-hour exams) "are waiting for me" on 18 and 20 June, and in such a large hall like this, in addition, I planned to study, hence it is obvious that this problem (maybe quite trivial - apparently), may limit me in the future. I write "apparently trivial", because that seemed to be trivial for the people from my family. Also, psychologists and psychiatrists, which I visited, they felt helpless in this matter, or simply, they were "changing the subject of a discussion" (the problem was not the only one for which I visited the doctors).

If anyone knows the problem and could advise me anything on this, any help would be appreciated, because I feel completely helpless. It seemed to me that the antidote to this problem should be a direct "encounter" with it, but every such attempt fails. This may also have an effect on my learning.

(By the way, the problem is not visible in the small, classic classrooms in the school)

Cheers

Chris