Idk what sparked this but I just emailed this to T.

"Why should I trust you with my deepest most intimate secrets? What
makes you so special? Why in the world do I make promises to you that
I refuse to break? Why do I constantly seek your approval? Why do I
care so much about what you think about me? Why did I give you so much
influence over my thoughts? Why do I care if you give up on me so
much? Why would I be devastated if you abandoned me? Why am I so
attached to you? Why do I value our relationship so damn much? Why
should I care what you think? Why should I love you like a parent if
you cant love me like a kid? Why should I keep coming back if this
only gets harder? Why should I believe in you?"