Thats a lot how I felt with my last T. She ended up abandoning me and I was beyond devastated. Turns out the whole relationship was screwed up (1 year) and in the end, she really had nothing to give. She has issues that she wasn't dealing with and I needed her to be well and wasn't falling for her calm demenor. In the end, she was completly frazzled (her words) and just lost control of things and I was collaterol damage. I've never heard from her again. I feel a million times better, all the depression that got worse the longer I saw her is gone. I see a new T that actually knows her and gives me hints that I wasn't wrong about what was happening in her professional life and her non social characteristics out side of therapy. and I have NONE of those feelings anymore. Therapy shouldn't make you feel worse.